Waiting for Hari Gawai Celebration

Tomorrow I will going to a Bidayuh people kampung to celebrate Hari Gawai together with them. May be some of you don't know that I was purposely staying at Kuching after the internship because of the BIG DAY at Sarawak.

I heard many of people said that the celebration was very fun and exciting. I never went for Hari Gawai, now is the only chance for me and of course I don't wish to miss it!!

I was in the delima before I made the decision to stay at Kuching for Hari Gawai. Most of the people, wish to go back home as soon as possible and searching a job, attending the interviews etc. Of course I hope so, but I really didn't want to miss this golden chance to celebrate Hari Gawai. My mom "complaint" me because I was wasting about 3 weeks at Kuching.

For me, I was not wasting my time here. When I was free and available at The Salvation Army Children's Home, I did help the staffs to do some admin works, and spend some times together with the children. I consider it as an valunteer job and I really enjoy about this. I love them so much. Besides, I also had more chances to spend the time with my ex-housemates and friends. We ate lots around kuching and we was really enjoy to eat... eat... and eat... haha...

Actually, I am curious about my future after this Hari Gawai. I will go back to JB and start looking for a job. That is another new journey. I really can't expect what will happening after this. Anyway, I will not care so much, because I just wish to focus here and now. Enjoy my "holiday".

yeah... "holiday". When my "holiday" will finish?? I wonder about this and nobody can tell me the answer, except my future boss. haha. I keep on remind myself, enjoying this "holiday" fully, because once I work in future, it will hard to get the "holiday" and get "relax".

I will never said that I am jobless, instead of "enjoying my holiday while searching a good job". This could let me feel better, and as a way to be optimistic.

Did you all realize that I was rarely to update my blog here?? Do you know why?? Because I force to write in English. haha... I really feel uncomfortable to write my blog in English. So far, I had create another blog and I write it in Chinese. I am so sorry for the readers who can't read in chinese. I was more hardworking to update my story there. Anyway, if you feel and curious about how it look likes, you can go to my profile and search for it and take a look. There have some nice pictures.

Anyway, you all are not forgotten, that is why you can read this post. I promise, I will continue writing this blog. Even though I will not update it often, but if I had get any big news (example: get a job, get a bf, get marry, get baby etc, hahah....), sure I will share with you. Erm... just depends on my mood. :)

I gonna leave kuching and UNIMAS soon. I miss all my coursemate, lecturer, my ex-housemates, my neightbours and my friends so much. And very soon, I will miss the children and the staffs here.

What can I do?? There is another new journey waiting for me, for others too. So, we force to be separate and get a new life experience.

Love you all~

Finally...

8-5-2009, Friday 4.15 p.m, I had submitted my internship compilation and related documents to my internship supervisor, Puan Hasniah at FSKPM office..

I was not that excited as what I had expected, but I was smiling when I was waiting my bus. I smile, because it is all over, I smile because I did it, I smile because it is meaningful.

I am sure that everyone, including myself felt the stress during this internship. Sometimes, I felt want to give up, or avoid it. Sometimes, we will think that it is a "mission impossible", but the result proved that... we can make it, as long as we did tried our best n never give up.

It is good to have stress actually, because it can motivate me to work harder. I will get to be lazy if without stress. And I need to admitted that I was a "last minute worker", because when only reach the last minutes period, I could feel the "hardworking" mood... haha.. However, I never simply did my last minutes work, I always make sure that it is in a good quality condition. If I have more time, I will make it perfect...

I found that I am the lucky one, I did not faced much difficulties during this internship. The Salvation Army Children's Home is welcomed me, the staffs and the children treat me nicely. They are very supportive and give me cooperative. At the beginning, I worried the children, and the teenagers did not want to accept me. I felt so good when I realize that they like me and accept me as one of the family members. Besides, I also felt a bit uncomfortable because almost the staffs are middle adult, the age gap between us made me feel hard to build rapport with them. However, everything gets smooth when I spent about 2 months together with them. My principle is “be friendly and respect others”!! And it did work.

I feel glad because the children n teenagers treat me as their sister, and the staffs treat me as their daughter. Moreover, I was so lucky because I have 2 good supervisors, Miss Ngui and Puan Hasniah. Miss Ngui is a very helpful person, she guide me a lot and give me very good advices and opinion during the internship. Puan Hasniah’s comments about my internship performance influence me a lot too. The praise from her gave me more confidence; her critics gave me more motivation to get improvement.

In short, this internship is great n I really learn a lot through this internship. This experience is priceless for me and it is really worth full.

Of course I did some mistakes during this internship. It is acceptable because we are still under straining and we are not perfect, the most important is we must realize what our mistake is and learn from it. This is the most effective way get learning and “remember” it forever.. hehe..

Even I had finished my internship, but my days at The Salvation Army Children’s Home are not at the end. I will stay here and work as volunteer. First of June is Gawai Day and this is the only chance that I have to celebrate it at Kampung. So I will not miss it. After Gawai, then I will back to JB and start my new journey. :)

Our School Holiday (4) - Program Jati Diri (part 5)

Leave somethings for memorial....

the campion for the morning slot competition...

the campion for the afternoon slot competition

Our best leader, co-leader and member.... :)

Our School Holiday (4) - Program Jati Diri (part 4)

fashion show competition... design the fashion with using plastic bag, newspaper and water colour....

Our queens.... nice n cute right??? they did a good job... well done...

Our School Holiday (4) - Program Jati Diri (part 3)

"cleaning up".... the group need to walk with using only 3 A4 papers....

"Scavenger Hunt".... search for 10 items (dictionary, mop, RM1, story book, sport shoes, green shirt, hair clip, soft stoy, cap, water bottel)

haha.. lazy want to explain this station, everyone have their own task that need to complete before go for the next station...

A happy family.... with their pet --- a chicken... wahaha

Our School Holiday (4) - Program Jati Diri (part 2)

Haha..... they need to move the ballon without using hands....

a very good team work acitivities --- puzzle games

"shuffling paper" ----- need to re-arrange 3 magazines... heheh...

Their pet!!! erm... according to the group, he is their "puppy" ... haha

Our School Holiday (4) - Program Jati Diri (part 1)

"Blind fold"... they like it...

Their "menara impian" :) nice right??

"Naik rakit".... hehe... they are strong enough... good job

"2 persons, 3 legs"..... simple, nice & fun. I like it!!

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

MyHeritage: Family trees - Genealogy - Celebs - Collage - Morph

Our School Holiday (3) - Badminton

They are not playing very well... but they very enjoy it..

Nice pose BOYS~ hehe

Our School Holiday (2) - Sematan Palm Beach

oh.. we love beach.. YEAH~

The kids very enjoy it... hehe..

wow~ a very big jellyfish...

She is sooo CUTE~~

Our school holiday (1) - Anger Management Workshop..

Express their anger through experissive art, drawing "mandala"

The big girls with their Anger Termometer... heheh.. hope they will able to apply what they had learn through this workshop...

After two months…

After two months for my internship…. So… how was that??

Erm… so far so good… but really tiring… stress… and busy.. (NORMAL lah…) Especially this month…. My working schedule.. PACK PACK PACK!!!!

Sometimes when I feel good, then I could enjoyed with my work and did it well…

When I was not feel well, down, stress… then it is hard for me to face the “challenges”. I wish to avoid from them.. I wish to escape from this place… I wish to take a holiday for vocation… but till the end, I was aware that I can’t give up so easily and must to be strong!!

Today, I got a bad day!!! Certain personal issues affect my emotion and I felt depressed… but I still need to work as fasilitator for 5 hours, and conduct a group counselling at night. But, I have no mood at all to do it…..

But what can I do?? I cannot escape from these and I must need to face them… I was not allowed to simply cancel my counselling appointment. To be a professional counsellor in future, I must learn how to manage my emotion well. At least, can’t bring my personal emotion into my work… But, it is not that easy… but I am glad, I did it quite well actually…

Thanks to my friends who msn with me, I feel better when I have chat with my friends, and thanks to my friends who leave their comments for me in facebook or at blog…

The comment from mama especially fit and suit on that moment when I need it…. when I feel so helpless, hopeless and depressed.

I must be strong, be motivated, be optimistic and be confident.

My thoughts very messy today actually… and I am not very satisfied with what I am writing now…

Erm… may be I still need more time to arrange my thought now.. and perhaps I was too tired… hard for me to think about these..

Better go to sleep now la… good night everyone...ZZZzzzzz…..

No more update your blog??

Haha… this is the question that my friends asked me recently!!

Erm… actually, I did update my blog, but I wrote in Chinese and posted it to my friendster blog.

Long time did not write in English, feel very uncomfortable now…. Ha ha…

Very busy nowadays, especially last week, because I needed to join some programs, to collect guidance activities credit hours, i also very busy edited and prepared all the documents and reports that need to mark by my supervisor.

see... this is my file... very thick right??

So… how was my evaluation?? Erm… I am pessimistic actually, so I had a very bad expectation about my evaluation. Haha… but it was not as bad as I expected. So, I am so easy to feel satisfied with it. Of course, I still have certain part of works that need to edit and to improve, and I have the confidence that I can make it better.

After the evaluation, I took two days for relaxing…. and now… I started to get be lazy… : (

Arg~! ! I need to get some “motivation” to “push” me work harder….

I like to work in practically, so I enjoyed to conduct counselling and some guidance activities. However, I very dislike do the documentation works such as case note writing, program proposal writing, journal writing, search the information, module development….. I dislike reading and writing!!!

I need to work everyday now…. I begin to feel bored and negative about such life style… I wish to have a vacation and have a good rest.

But I can’t…. I must complete 600 credit hours first for this internship….

What I can do now to have a better life?

1) Good time management (ensure I have certain times for rest, msn with friends, and have some entertainment)

2) Don’t blame (this only will make me more dislike with this internship)

3) Work sincerely (try my best and wish to provide the best service to everyone, never give up and don’t expect too much)

4) Enjoy it!!! (this is a learning process… and a very good chance for me to gain knowledge and working experiences)

5) TAHAN!!!!!! It will be over very soon….. ^_^

For those who is having their internship too…. GAMBATEH!!! and….. TAHAN la~!!