Sunday, March 8, 2009

After two months…

After two months for my internship…. So… how was that??

Erm… so far so good… but really tiring… stress… and busy.. (NORMAL lah…) Especially this month…. My working schedule.. PACK PACK PACK!!!!

Sometimes when I feel good, then I could enjoyed with my work and did it well…

When I was not feel well, down, stress… then it is hard for me to face the “challenges”. I wish to avoid from them.. I wish to escape from this place… I wish to take a holiday for vocation… but till the end, I was aware that I can’t give up so easily and must to be strong!!

Today, I got a bad day!!! Certain personal issues affect my emotion and I felt depressed… but I still need to work as fasilitator for 5 hours, and conduct a group counselling at night. But, I have no mood at all to do it…..

But what can I do?? I cannot escape from these and I must need to face them… I was not allowed to simply cancel my counselling appointment. To be a professional counsellor in future, I must learn how to manage my emotion well. At least, can’t bring my personal emotion into my work… But, it is not that easy… but I am glad, I did it quite well actually…

Thanks to my friends who msn with me, I feel better when I have chat with my friends, and thanks to my friends who leave their comments for me in facebook or at blog…

The comment from mama especially fit and suit on that moment when I need it…. when I feel so helpless, hopeless and depressed.

I must be strong, be motivated, be optimistic and be confident.

My thoughts very messy today actually… and I am not very satisfied with what I am writing now…

Erm… may be I still need more time to arrange my thought now.. and perhaps I was too tired… hard for me to think about these..

Better go to sleep now la… good night everyone...ZZZzzzzz…..

2 comments:

Zuraidah said...

Jenice
When you are under stress, you don't give 100% to your work. Take deep breaths, close your eyes and do imaging technique to help yourself. Or go soak yourself in a cool river in Kuching, that is, if you like rivers. Many nice ones in Kuching. Cool water soothes your tired body and mind.I miss Matang Wildlife.
Good luck and keep cool and Jenice Boleh!
mama

peaceonearth said...

Hi Jenice,
keep up writing, will 'release' yr stress once a while, don't u think so? I'm really proud of you, words you wrote for Hisyam, that was really "deep" and I am really touch with strong freindship among counselling students and that you all there for each others and help each other, keep up the good spirit! - pn jem